I am grateful for the 'time and space' bubble that I am in right now. In September when JJ went back to school, I filled my days with tasks and to do lists. I crossed items off all day long. I was productive. However, after a few weeks of that, I noticed that my days were feeling full, but not meaningful. It was time to revamp - this is after all, "This Year."
"This Year" is about finding balance, reprioritizing, enjoying life, taking care of my family and friends. I don't want it to end without having done some of that!
Here's what my second try looks like:
I still have lists, but they are a bit more open ended. For example each Monday is: take care of our family day. This could include cooking, grocery shopping, scrubbing the toilets, doing laundry, etc. Instead of approaching the day with tasks to do, I am looking at it as a care-taker of the two people I love the most. It's amazing how this has shifted my thinking as I finish the same actions as before. Even sweeping the floor is enjoyable, because of this new mindset. I turn on some dance tunes and groove the dirt right out of this house, all for the sake of loving my family (plus dirt on the floors really bugs me!).
I wonder if this is how humans were created? Were we made to be this intentional? Is it over-board? Am I taking this thing too far? Truth be told, I'm worried about becoming 'soft'. Teaching is a difficult, emotionally-draining job. What if I become so intentional that I can't just 'get a job done'? Not to mention, I kind of like crossing off tasks on to-do lists!
The gift of time and space finds me with fresh energy to wonder, learn and grow. I am thankful.